something...

I love a good depressing song. The kind that make you re-evaluate your life and wish you had done so much by now. Is it depressing that I think I may actually enjoy being depressed? It seems like my brain just kinda works that way and that's the way it's always been. If that's how I'm wired then I guess that's the way it is. It's very strange to be depressed and enjoy it, but because one is depressed there is the desire to do something about it. Maybe I'm totally crazy, but still sane enough to see it through the window. Or maybe I should just get the fuck over it. I do know I need a change and that it's time to fix some things that are definitely in need of it. There are somethings that I definitely don't enjoy anymore and need to do something about them. Or else I may really go crazy and not be able to see it coming anymore. I refuse to get lost in my own brain.