staring at walls is fun!

Sometimes I can just lay in my bed or on a couch for what feels like hours and just stare at the wall or ceiling. I don't even need any chemical or herbal persuasion to put me in the mood to do it. I like it. I look at the textures on the wall and start to see things in them. I just let my imagination run wild, which isn't hard for since it is usually going about a million miles a minute anyway. Most of the time I see faces of monsters or dead things, like bunnies. AS I look at the wall I'll stare and then let the things come and go. I will move my eyes around to see what pops out at me. I've always been able to do this ever since I was little. It is a way I have kept my imagination as active as it is today. For a short time I wasn't able to do it. It was one of the scariest parts of my life. This was the only time it had ever happened. I felt like something was very wrong with me. I thought I was going insane since I couldn't see death and demons looking back at me in my ceiling.